Random Philosophies

August 22, 2009

Where Have I Gone To?

It's been a fast year between this post, and my last. Last year I started school full time, while continuing to work full time, leaving me with literally no time at all. It seems like an exageration, but my schedule had me up at 7:45 am for school, and I got home after work at 9:30 pm. Homework kept me busy until sleep time, if it allowed for that.

Yet, now I sit feeling the want to write again. The schedule made it tough, and little was happening in my day or mind to write about. But, and I make no guarantees, I think I'll start throwing a post up again.

July 28, 2008

Newness Comes Back Into My Life

What a strange time in life. I've been home over a year and a half now, and thus far have not really done much of anything. There was the feeling that I should just relax and keep my driven self still for a bit. I have the type of personality that I need to keep moving, constantly changing things, and finding new challenges or I feel a bit dead, or useless inside.

Nonetheless, this year has been a strange one for me. The good news is that I feel it's time to begin the task of getting my education back on track. I left high school believing that I would never attend college, and everybody stared at me with confusion. Considering how much I love to learn, and where I feel it to be a need to keep my life on a perpetual motion, I can now understand why they opposed me.

I'll admit that I do feel a bit of nervousness about this venture, but looking back on how I start everything this is quite normal. My perfectionist spirit is ruthless, and demanding leaving me up to the task of proving things to myself. I recognize this, and use it to my advantage to urge me to be at the top of my game. In the end, I will overcome school with the brutal drive that has always spurned me forward. Just pray I don't leave with inexcusable debt.

Oh, International Business with a minor in Japanese.

June 03, 2008

Even If No One Reads

It has been months since I last posted anything on this blog. Months that really have just kind of vanished amongst the routine, sadly and not sadly. I originally started blogging as a way update people back home in The States when I was travelling abroad working as a missionary. Within that context, there were walls that allowed me to write about certain subjects and topics. At time is felt a bit constricting, and downright boring. Writing while having to exclude is never very fun. Is limited expression really expression at all?

I am now going to use this blog as a source for me to gain a better understanding of the world I find myself in, regardless if anyone really reads it. I will make judgments, and make mistakes, and months down the road I'll be able to discover them while reading through past blogs. This does require a sort of vulnerability, and god forbid I should ever become a politician, because these writings I'm sure would kill any sort of campaign. Sad, eh?

I'll write when I feel like it, and I'm sure there will be some months that I skip typing a word at all. So be it.

February 10, 2008

There Is A Time For Change

No, no, this not an Obama blog. For some time I've sat about Boise just waiting. I felt secure in not trying to grab the wheel and force something to happen. But, I can only do so for so long before this becomes detrimental to me. Drive and ambition have been a part of my life, even in times where I did not recognize it I was still moving somewhere.

With the change in weather, I hope that a spring will come into my life as well, and that I will have something to look forward to, something to develop. Perhaps God was right in making me wait in this mundane stage, as I get very restless and he can channel my rebellious nature towards his workings.

"If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, then he is not fit to live." MLK

January 06, 2008

Still Shooting Film and Off the Floor

As the title shows, I was sleeping on the floor for a number of months. Now, before you think a sympathetic thought, it was by choice, mostly. When I had left The States I had sold most of my goods, believing that I would be gone longer than a year, which we all know did not happen. Since then it has been a long process of getting back on my feet and charting out my next expedition.

I picked up a film camera (Canon EOS 3), and paired it up with a 50mm prime lens. This being the most economical solution to getting a camera back in my hands. It's been a wonderful experience. The hope was to buy another digital camera, but the equipment that I look towards is still more than I have. This made me restless at first, but I have come to peace with still working with my film camera, and will probably put my money towards my lens, so that my transition back to digital will be easier.

My hopes for the future are to begin working in a dark room, and potentially buy the equipment for one; to start going to the Y on a regular basis; and to start with Big Brothers, Big Sisters. We'll see how those turn out.

November 19, 2007

It Is By Thinking That We Save Ourselves Death While Living

©Darnell K. L. Weightman

I use iTunes to hold the library of my music, and on it I have a shopping cart of around $500.00 of future music to purchase. I would have more, but they limit the $500.00 for my shopping cart.

Every couple of months I go through the whole cart and listen to the 30 second stints of a song, and my has more thoughts than I get my entire week. I feel sort of vegetated at the moment. I make enough at my job to pay my bills, and have a little bit of spending money, but it places me in the beautiful cycle of always having to spend the majority of my time while I'm awake at doing something that I wouldn't do for free. Thus, I find myself exhausted, and often quite numb due to the common routine that I must do in order to simply exist.

During the week while driving to work, I realized I need to walk more in the parks, to get out of my apartment and feel the wind and rain that we have right now. I need music and books to flood my mind with new thoughts, new arguments, and to stir my soul so easily made drunk by the mundane realities of this life. I need to shut of my TV and spend a night with music, a glass of wine, and a book the invokes my philosophical mind to become active again.

November 12, 2007

Photo Shoots of the Couey's